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Old hag = 33

New class = my new course

I never felt this old, my class is divided into 2 terms per semester, each term is 6 weeks. 2 subject each term, 2 online test + 1 group assignment + one exam/individual assignment per subject, that makes up 8 online test + 4 group assignment + 4 individual assignment/exam per semester!!!

I find it a bit hard to catch up with the tempo... look at those fresh young things in class, you can see the energy bursting out of their eyes... I really feel old... chuan arh...

Work harder bah lao cha bo... si bei sian lor... got myself into deep shit again...

What is happiness? How would one feel when one basked in happiness?

For me, it's contentment, when you are in a state where you don't feel like you need another thing, you're there. To be honest, I feel like that occasionally. Don't ask me when, I can't tell you now.

I feel peaceful doing anything, not the usual grouchy and whiny me. I can practically do nothing, just watch a DVD and wait, time seems to fly in those moments.

The only thing I wish for now is for the moments like this to last last last... forever.

Yes, the real goodbye to Nom, just this evening.

When I left work last month, I didn't feel sad. It's like going on leave. Last week I had an offer to go back, as a management trainee. I just said no a while ago. And I know, this is goodbye to Nom forever.

I feel sad, it had been my 2nd home for 4 years, with people who take care of me like a mother, like a brother, like a sister, like a friend. I know I whine a lot about the place and some of the people there, but I had a lot of good feeling about the place too, for most people who worked there, it's almost like a family, for me too.

I must thank everyone who have been nice to me there, thank everyone who have taught me things there, thank everyone who believed in me there, I have gained and grow a lot in Nom.

Had lunch with P & K last week, was laughing at myself when we talked about work in Nom, I was telling them that all the work is still fresh on my mind, where I save the emails how things were supposed to be done... I even said that even the grudges still felt fresh.

Now, from now, it's over, and things in Nom will just be memories, like other memories which faded with time. I'll have to let them go. If I'm not happy at my current place, I'll move on to a new one, one without a baggage...

I cried just now, farewells are always sorrowful.

if u see me and say hi to me in he street, dun be surprised if i have to take 10s to recognise you. cos 33 is processing things slowly due to the lack of brain activity during work time...

tom i bring my course assignment to office to read, to kill time. hope nobody care.

I know how to be happy now, I know when I feel totally contented. All I ask for now is just a chance, to be happy, please let me have it. I'll treasure it. It's not easy things work out till they are like now, I just hope that I've not screwed it.