RRKP

I am dying...

I feel that my heart is clamped tightly by something whenever I think about going to work. I must be dying soon, my heart is clamped so tightly it's suffocating me...

I feel like puking, I can't breathe, yet I can't faint, if I could, at least I can leave my job using medical reason as an excuse...

I just feel nauseous... I let out a sigh everytime going to work comes to my mind. I fee disgusted, I hate to get out of bed in the morning. I can't sleep properly bcause try to find an excuse s that I can quit or not go to work there. I must be very sick, I must be dying soon...

I let out a sigh when I hae to step into office, in the mornig and after lunch... I am so stressed and I'm dying...

I am dying...

It's back to the days when I feel so .... in the American place.

Just changed from Brit to Frenchy, yes again...

I worked in 3 place last yr, really dunno how long I'll last in this place...

Yes, like American, this place promised to be promising, and I know that if I work hard enough, it will be promising. It's gonna take me to places, it pays well, good name, can go back early....

But still, i feel the same like i'm back to America....

It's stiffling, I'm suffocating. But this time, someone brought me in, I can't leave like I did in America.

Brit has a set of management full of crap, but it's filled with people full of fun. Work is something that I know at the back of my hand... I can excel in it, I can feel important... But no future, and is frustrating sometimes... I can lie low and yet shine... I have FRIENDS....

Frenchy is ... stiffling, I'm new in the area of work, dunno how I will fare. I have to meet people up there, I can't be myself and I feel that I have nothing to contribute. I hate to feel useless. That was how I felt in America too...

Am I crazy, am i mad, wa siao liao si bo?

Why can't I be practical and just move on???

I think I should really own up to myself, I just want a simple life, be myself, be crazy, be useful, be happy. earning more or climbing high does not make me happy... Can I choose again???

I know time dun turn back, I just hope I can buy myself out of the shit I got myself in.

Somebody help me, I need a gross amount of money!!! then i can live a life, a carefree life! Strike toto, huat ar!!!

This world is so chaotic because people dun mind their own business.

Everyone have the right to live the life they wanna live.

I dunno wat to say.... Things are complicated as it is when it only involves the parties involved.

Why can't people who are not involved keep their mouth shut....

They can never feel wat the involved people feel, why can't they understand that their unwanted involvement is adding to the complications...

Please, do not give unwanted advice, they will ask you for advice if they need any...

Please, leave the troubled people alone, because they have enough confusion...

Please, give unconditional support to any decision they make, they already have all the consequence to face...

Please, bear in mind that it's their life, not yours...

Please, please, please leave them alone...

Please, please, please let them survive...

Please, please, please you can live without making life hell for others...

Please, please, please....

MYOB

Hmmm, watched the movie last Sunday with mama n ah yee, glad they both enjoyed it...

the theme song "zek nang zek buang" and the "chap ji kor lian huay" keep ringing in my head.... quite freaky hor... best part is, u know, getai leaves some seats empty for hao xiong di to sit one, then the WHOLE ROW of seats besides me was empty for the the first 10 min after show start, u cannot imagine my relief when I saw real ppl taking up the seats lor when they come in late...

well, the movie was alright for me, didn't laugh a lot, but did a bit of eye wiping... It was more of a touching movie for me, not so much of a comedy...

now here's the Director's own 881 site: http://royston-tan.blogspot.com/

those who haven't watch can consider, as far as I'm concern, it's definately worth watching once

Here's the link to some Youtube Videos:

Karen and durian sisters
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uO1BqTGnUPI

881 sisters
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eb4x0G2FfjI

Roystan and 715
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDBCikFSZPY

MP is my 5th sis....

One day, milk piglet and mama went to prime mart to buy bread. and the
conversation goes:-

MP: mama, 七月几时完?
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Mama: 八月来了七月就完 lor.
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MP:@&#^%$*(#(*. 我很苯 meh? 七月到底几时完?
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Mama: 八月初一.
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MP: *faints*