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Congrats Miss Sunshines, you'll be happily married soon :)

This post is for you, the only reader of this bloggie....

If you dun use your brains, you will lose the ability to use it in time to come.

Proven:

Thursday, 33 arranged with secy fren to go shopping near office at lunch time.

So at go home time, we set off together. Outside the office buildng, this happenned.

I asked: "sorry, I know we planned to do something, but can you tell me wat?"

She said: "I don't know how to get there, you wanted to bring me there."

I said: "Yes, I remember we have to go there, but tell me what we wanna do there, this can help me recall where I wanted to bring you.

She: "We going to Sasa to check our the clenser promotion."

Finally, I remembered. Off we went to the destination.


This is not the only thing, I seem to have very little short term memory nowadays. That included my vocabulary and my mental contacts list. I have been experiencing the "cannot continue my sentence" symptom. I know what I want to say, but I cannot summon the word or name. So instead of saying the word, I have to use a description and ask the whoever who was speaking to me to tell me whats the word or who the person is...

Its very worrying....

The feeling is bad again.

I really feel like crap. I feel very useless...

I know I like to whine, I know I did this to myself.

But I really feel like crap... I really don't like what I'm doing...

Whine whine whine...

The thing to look forward to is over, or rather, soon to be over.

This is the first time I actually looked forward to CNY holidays... Cos it takes me away from the office. I dun hafta go back to the place that I hate....

Now that it's gonna be over in less than 24 hours, I feel so sad and desperate again.

I know I hate the job, but I had to stay for a while, dun I? I hate the feeling of not having a choice. But it was because I had a choice and that I had actually made a choice that had landed me in the current situation of not having a choice. Again, I am to blame... bleh....

So what do I look forward to now?

Why dun someone tell me how to kill 9 hours in office pretending to be doing something when there is nothing to be done before that 9 hours of nothing-to-do-ness kill me?

Do you believe that having nothing to do makes a person stupid? I do. So help me help me help me..... I need to escape...

Oh my sanity...

I really really really really dun like this place.

Never sacrifice job satisfaction for money. That maths is wrong, esp for emotional health.