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The anger is more or less fully suppressed. I always know that whatever I am doing now is only a means to an end.

My sis told me that I should stop being negative since I know the means and end theory, so just get over the anger and move on.

I felt very angry when I heard that. I told her I can't talk to her about this, it made me feel worse. The same goes for my whining sessions to bf, same, he cannot empathize, he sympathize...

On the 3rd day, I met my dear fren Cow for lunch. I surprised myself, I did not whine and get emotional at all (I was very emotional on day 1 n 2). It striked me tha I don't have to upset myself so much.

Cow is also not happy at work, though he's not so whinny like me, he's not happy. We talked about the means and end thing and the empathy relieved my aggrieved soul instantly.

I remember that I have to look outside my anger, I can see that my/our fate is not sealed yet. What we are now facing is only temporary, it will be over when we earned our means, the ending will be sweet, cos we worked hard for it. Just like seeing the rainbow after the grey gloomy rain.

Me's mood BC (Before Cow)

我的天空是灰色的，我也变成黑白的，只有眼泪是蓝色的。但我相信，有一天，我会恢复色彩的.

Me's mood today

Shadows in the Lavender Fields