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thanks ms val for telling that.

what u say is true, the only things is that, i have been living in the unhappy side of the world for a long time, it has changed the way i see things. everything looks unhappy.

I may have forgotten how to be happy. I may be sick, and am your sick fren as mini say.

But i'm always glad to have genuine frens who bring me to the happy side when ever we meet up, whenever u all hear me whine. thats when i know i'm still lucky.

at least i dun have to drown alone in my own tears.

In time to come, i hope i will find the happiness that i have always looking for. hope that i wun whine anymore.

Do it even if u dun wanna do it.

force urself to it

for a while...

maybe a short while

maybe for a long time.

cos u have to.

I DUN WAN, but DO IT anyway.

This bloody fool, lets call him DAMN IDIOT or D.I. made me explode today.

I bloody cried (tears roll down kind) on the MRT. I cried when I got home, when I shower, after I shower.

BECAUSE I AM SO ANGRY!!!!!!

He bloody hell pushed an unplesant job to me, a lowbie hei bee hired by another group company, cos no boody person in his company wanna do this bloody unpleasant job.

Look at the extent of his stinky tactics. He bloody call this centralization, but he is simply bloody shirking responsibility.

D.I is a MD, nabei MD. Limbeh is a hei bee, hei bee got no chance, ppl flush u into toilet u dissapear without others noticing. protest, sorry, the bloody flush drowns my puny voice by 1zil times.

I just have to do it, cos I have to stick in that bloody company/hell for a while.

I am sorry that I land myself in this company/hell. I am sorry that I have no ability to quit without a job.

I such a sorry person who nobody will say sorry to.

STUPID CKH. But even CKH is not as stupid as stinky cheapo shitty D.I..

I hate that hell, it's definately the most sucky place I've ever been to.

Ya, I think unhappy ppl blog.

I am unhappy.

I blog.

Yes, I blog when I'm unhappy.

I AM VERY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY today.

Sothing is upsetting inside, dunno at.

Like the rumbling appliance, u know something is wrong. But where? No one can give me a diagnosis, not even meself...

grrrr grrrn tok tek rrrrrr rrrrr

soon it will just explode, mebbe it should do that sooner...

Thats what I do for 95% of the things. Especially waking up in the morning.

It's a everyday thing, no matter how much I wnt to save on the ridiculous peak hour cab fare. or no maater how bad I want to stop feeling paisei about reaching office grossly late.... cannot wake up means cannot wake up.

"Later" is the most frequently used work in my life. Not "no". I don't like to say "no". Because there are too may better answers than that.

Time waits for no one, no one can escape from time, not even procastinators. Later is part of time...

Later later later...

Congrats Miss Sunshines, you'll be happily married soon :)

This post is for you, the only reader of this bloggie....

If you dun use your brains, you will lose the ability to use it in time to come.

Proven:

Thursday, 33 arranged with secy fren to go shopping near office at lunch time.

So at go home time, we set off together. Outside the office buildng, this happenned.

I asked: "sorry, I know we planned to do something, but can you tell me wat?"

She said: "I don't know how to get there, you wanted to bring me there."

I said: "Yes, I remember we have to go there, but tell me what we wanna do there, this can help me recall where I wanted to bring you.

She: "We going to Sasa to check our the clenser promotion."

Finally, I remembered. Off we went to the destination.


This is not the only thing, I seem to have very little short term memory nowadays. That included my vocabulary and my mental contacts list. I have been experiencing the "cannot continue my sentence" symptom. I know what I want to say, but I cannot summon the word or name. So instead of saying the word, I have to use a description and ask the whoever who was speaking to me to tell me whats the word or who the person is...

Its very worrying....